Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
1 Corinthians 13: 4-7
It's usually hard for me to write my problems on blogger.
I guess I live in this fantasy world where I expect everyone to think problems never arise, or better yet, maybe they don't want to here about mine because they have their own to deal with.
Isn't that what a blogs for though?
I mean I've had this thing for a couple months now and I tend to just skim the border on issues I'm having, never asking for advice.
I sit down my pride and I'm asking for advice.
I know I don't have many followers,
(and I thank every single one of you that are a follower!!!)
so the input might not be as great as I'd hoped, but I'd really like some advice.
Here starts my story:
I know people get complacent in their marriages and I feel like the Mister and I are definitely two of those people. Things have changed majorly and I can't help but reminisce upon the days of our engagement, or even our first couple months of marriage. I knew my husband before he joined the Navy. We had actually went out on a few dates in High School and he was such a different person. It never really went anywhere and he went off to join up, and I didn't hear from him and never kept in contact either. I started working in my hometown and for his leave three years later he just so happens to come to my work and need something. We catch up and decide to go out on a date that night. The rest from there is, well ya know...
My point is, I saw the way my husband was BEFORE the Navy (even if we weren't together) and the way he acts NOW.
I hate to say this, but I can't help but think that the cause of the majority of our problems all spring back to the military and the way he was trained to be a leader, have no remorse, hide your emotions, etc.etc.
Here in lies the problem of anger as well.
I know most men deal with that, but my husband really struggles with it
(also thinking stress from work can be causing this.)
I just don't know what to do anymore...
I've tried to mention counseling, but it goes on their record and could potentially lead to a bad evaluation on an upcoming promotion.
We tried the Love Dare, but it quickly fell flat.
I wanted to try church, but every time Sunday rolls around we just don't get around to it.
With all of this being said, I love my husband and I would go to the ends of the earth for this man, but I can't help but feel that we have forgotten what a husband and wife are to each other.
When the days are good they're great, but when they're bad, they're bad.
There have just been little problems lately that keep building up and I don't know what to do to make things better. I've been majorly depressed for the past 6 months because of it.
Maybe I was depressed before and that is what caused this. I'm not saying it's all his fault by any means.
I am guilty too. They're have been plenty of times where I could have just been quiet and held my tongue instead of instigating a situation to where it escalated into an argument.
There is a scripture at the top of this post. 1 Corinthians... I try to remember everything that verse says and live by it, but sometimes we get so caught up in our own little world, we forget how much we can actually hurt someone by not respecting them and loving them.
The Mister is going underway here VERY soon, so maybe this break will give us just enough time to clear our heads for awhile.